You know what's odd about being in Mourning? It's not what you expect at all. It's not what you thought it would be. Take for instance, Easter Sunday. I was so worried about how Easter was going to be for me and my mom and family and Easter came and went like any other day for us. Today was very hard for us. Today, of all days, not a special day, but an ordinary day. Ordinary days can drive you crazy with emotional mood swings. It is in the daily mundane that there is much pain. So I decided that I wanted to take a drive. I asked my husband to go on a drive with me. My mom was home with my sons and my dog Rudy who is in mourning as well. (poor lil guy) I had two commitments with two special God sons today that I couldn't keep. I feel bad about it and I love them so much, but I wasn't up to it. I'm not ready to be around a lot of people right now. I just want to be home, "nesting" if you understand. I want to be in the garden, I want to lay on the couch, I want to put away laundry (okay maybe not that) and watch my sons play soccer outside. I want to sing in my dogs ear as we swing on my front porch swing. I want to breathe slowly. That's what I want to do. So that's what I did today.
We had no real plan, just a drive. Everything is so green right now. And so much is in bloom. I did take some photos of my trees and a statue I got to honor Max my beloved friend and dog. Have I mentioned how obsessed I am with trees. I love trees, love photos and paintings of trees. They are spiritual and symbolic and peaceful.
Here is the sweet statue I bought to honor Max.
Our drive through Bucks County led us to Black Eyed Susan's. Okay so I wanted to show my husband the new store.
I did buy some lovely things.
It is a glass dome that goes over anything you want. I bought a lovely birds nest on a stand. It is lovely.