As I look at these two photos I realize that the girl in each of the photos is not very different even though there is a thirty-something years difference between them. The girl on the left is me at I think age 10 or so. And the one on the right is me at my Christmas party just a few weeks ago at 49. I realized there are things that have not exactly changed.
Then Me: Now Me:
10 year old is afraid of the dark. I'm afraid of not knowing where I'm going.
Believes in Santa Believes in Santa
Wants to be a good wife and mother Hopes she's been a good wife and mother
Excited about the future Wonders about the future
Wants to do something great. Wants to live a peaceful and great life
Fearless and without worry Fear and worry are part of my normal day
Spins around in her room trying to change Realizes she is not and can never be WWoman.
into wonder woman.
Wants to do so many things. Wishes she could have done so much more.
The end of 2014 and the beginning of 2015 brings me to a stage I have never been at.
But I am facing it with peace in my heart and a positive outlook. Although I am going to be saying goodbye to my son in a few days as he goes back to school I know I will see him soon and a few college breaks where he can come home or we can go there are right around the corner.
I am filled with hope and excitement for my store and what new experiences it will bring. I will be a store owner in 2015. I already have things planned in my head for the different seasons and am already planning my store's floor plan with my daughter-in-law. Also looking forward to attending the trade show in January and working on inventory.
I'm hopeful about finding an agent that's just right for me and am committed to finishing my third novel before the Spring and before the store opens.
So with a new haircut, (it's awful so I won't be posting photos for a while) a new year and some hope I am saying goodbye to a bittersweet year and welcoming a new one.
I wish you all a positive, healthy, peaceful and joyous New Year. May you be blessed.